I think that it is good and healthy to question things to a certain extent. It means that you are still pursuing excellence and betterment. It means that you aren't content with complacency and status quo. And right now, I am in a season of questioning and searching out how my life and things and places are supposed to be used.
All of the people and companies and creatives that I follow on various social media platforms, I do so for inspiration. And somewhere along the way I started feeling like I had to do whatever it was that they were doing to continue to grow this thing (meaning luxe|wise). In my heart I began to (almost desperately) long for affirmation and support, and I started to forget. I got swamped with the emotions of feeling like I was delusional and wildly unliked, and I forgot that I didn't start doing this to be popular and explode with "followers" and have 1000s of likes. Just being real here.
Somewhere along the way I started to believe that it was ok the be somewhat masked about the fact that I believe in the God who redeems things and saves us. That He is good and loving and gracious and kind and so worthy. And He wants me to use the platforms that HE sets before me to give Him away.
So for all two of you who read this, I need to admit that I got skewed. I got off track. Would you forgive me for (unintentionally) leading you to believe that the momentary and fading things of this world are the goal that will fill your soul? Because they aren't. I don't think that I'm the best at all of this fashion makeup decor stuff. I don't think my selfies are awesome. I don't think I'm better than you, or anyone. I just wanted to help encourage us in the struggle of this rat race that you can be a good steward of these things instead of either trying to compete with the world or completely give up altogether. All this "stuff" are things we were meant be good stewards of, to handle rightly and hold on loosely to, and to make much of the God who authored them and wants to use them to remind us that HE IS REAL. HEAVEN IS REAL. This life is so short, and one day we will be face to face with Him. What will we say about our lives then?
I've been brought back to a place where I am remembering that this life is so short. So why not be used up for the Glory of GOD, the ONLY thing that will ever last?! Since moving, I feel like a blank slate. No idea what my future holds. No idea what these talents/gifts/skills of mine are supposed to be used for now, in this new season. But I'm ready to do anything God asks me to. Even if it means wiping luxe|wise off the face of the worldwide map (which I don't believe is the case for now haha). Cause really, is that so bad of a loss? Nah. Not in light of eternity. But I pray that this little spot on the net will be used to impact eternity, whatever that looks like. I know that my husband and kiddos are of utmost priority, so that may mean that luxe|wise will be slowing its roll a bit. But you know what, that's ok. There may be those of you who are thinking, "Oh my word I can't believe she is saying all this. How bad for business?!" But really, I'm ok with it. Because I'm not in the business of growing a business. I was made to make much of my Savior who is worth every risk and every honest word and every single step of obedience that looks crazy or dumb or backwards to everyone else.
So for now, to the two of you who read this, just hear my confession that I got off a bit. I forgot what this was for. I didn't mean to lead you to believe things to be true that aren't. I'm sorry, truly. Forgive me?
Let's start again.
Really and truly so much love for you-